Lights rise on THE PILOT, a woman dressed in an Air Force flight suit. THE PILOT:
I never wanted to take it off
Staring at myself in the mirror
Myself in this
I had earned this
This was me now
This was who I was now who Iād become through sweat and brains and guts
This is me
Itās more than a suit
Itās the speed
Itās the G-Force pressing you back as you tear the sky
Itās the ride
My Tiger
My gal who cradles me lifts me up
Itās more
Itās the respect
Itās the danger
Itās
Itās more
Itās
You are the blue
You are alone in the vastness and you are the blue
Astronauts
They have eternity
But I have color
I have blue
Iām in the blue for a reason
I have missiles to launch
I have Sidewinders
I have Mavericks
I rain them down on the minarets and concrete below me
The structures that break up the sand
I break them back down
Return them to desert
To particles
Sand
At least I think I do
Iām long gone by the time the boom happens
Tiger and I are on to another piece of sky
Boom
Boom goes Saddamās dipshit army and then Iām home on leave
Wyoming
Leave is fine but itās slow
Slow and the blue is there everywhere but far away
Far
So I go to a bar
Pilot bar
I drink with my boys and we tell stories about flying
We try to make it into words
You can get close
But you never can
A guy comes up to me
A guy always comes up
No not always
It takes balls
Hard to casually sidle up to a bunch of drunk Air Force on leave
Maneuver yourself through all the boys to get to me
That takes some offensive flying of its own
But the guy makes it through
Gets up from a card game and runs the gauntlet to get to me Heās kinda cute
I tell him straight off who I am what I am
Iāve learned not to wait
Once they find out
They tend to run away
Most guys donāt like what I do
Feel theyāre less of a guy around me
I take the guy spot and they donāt know where they belong
But not this one
This oneās eyes light up
This one thinks itās cool
This one kisses me in the parking lot like Iām the rock star I am
Heās not afraid to kiss me
Eric
Heās Eric
I take him home
We fuck
First timeās okay
Then he asks me to put my suit on
He says please
I tell him just once
Just telling him is enough
Heās hard as a Sidewinder
Itās a good three days
A very good three days
He tells me he can feel the sky in me
I tell him heās crazy
But something shifts
Somethingās breached
Iām back downrange
First time Iām sad leave is over
Shit
For Eric who works in a hardware store the family store
Shit
Like some 50ās movie
Iāve got my little woman at home know who Iām fighting for
All that true corn
True cheese
Lucky I got shit to distract me
I got tracer fire
I got RPGs
And Iāve got the blue
Itās good to be back in the blue
Alone in the blue
Back at base I got webcams
I got Eric with a little delay
He misses me
I miss him too
I gain weight
Does love make you heavy?
I feel the harness tight against my waist
Try to watch the burgers in the caf
Hold the burgers
Itās not the burgers
Iām up in the blue and I almost hurl in my mask
Make it down just in time to puke on the tarmac
Tell the boys I drank too much last night
Do a test
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