Lights rise on THE PILOT, a woman dressed in an Air Force flight suit.
THE PILOT:
I never wanted to take it off
Staring at myself in the mirror
Myself in this
I had earned this
This was me now
This was who I was now who Iâd become through sweat and brains and guts
This is me
Itâs more than a suit
Itâs the speed
Itâs the G-Force pressing you back as you tear the sky
Itâs the ride
My Tiger
My gal who cradles me lifts me up
Itâs more
Itâs the respect
Itâs the danger
Itâs
Itâs more
Itâs
You are the blue
You are alone in the vastness and you are the blue
Astronauts
They have eternity
But I have color
I have blue
Iâm in the blue for a reason
I have missiles to launch
I have Sidewinders
I have Mavericks
I rain them down on the minarets and concrete below me
The structures that break up the sand
I break them back down
Return them to desert
To particles
Sand
At least I think I do
Iâm long gone by the time the boom happens
Tiger and I are on to another piece of sky
Boom
Boom goes Saddamâs dipshit army and then Iâm home on leave
Wyoming
Leave is fine but itâs slow
Slow and the blue is there everywhere but far away
Far
So I go to a bar
Pilot bar
I drink with my boys and we tell stories about flying
We try to make it into words
You can get close
But you never can
A guy comes up to me
A guy always comes up
No not always
It takes balls
Hard to casually sidle up to a bunch of drunk Air Force on leave
Maneuver yourself through all the boys to get to me
That takes some offensive flying of its own
But the guy makes it through
Gets up from a card game and runs the gauntlet to get to me Heâs kinda cute
I tell him straight off who I am what I am
Iâve learned not to wait
Once they find out
They tend to run away
Most guys donât like what I do
Feel theyâre less of a guy around me
I take the guy spot and they donât know where they belong
But not this one
This oneâs eyes light up
This one thinks itâs cool
This one kisses me in the parking lot like Iâm the rock star I am
Heâs not afraid to kiss me
Eric
Heâs Eric
I take him home
We fuck
First timeâs okay
Then he asks me to put my suit on
He says please
I tell him just once
Just telling him is enough
Heâs hard as a Sidewinder
Itâs a good three days
A very good three days
He tells me he can feel the sky in me
I tell him heâs crazy
But something shifts
Somethingâs breached
Iâm back downrange
First time Iâm sad leave is over
Shit
For Eric who works in a hardware store the family store
Shit
Like some 50âs movie
Iâve got my little woman at home know who Iâm fighting for
All that true corn
True cheese
Lucky I got shit to distract me
I got tracer fire
I got RPGs
And Iâve got the blue
Itâs good to be back in the blue
Alone in the blue
Back at base I got webcams
I got Eric with a little delay
He misses me
I miss him too
I gain weight
Does love make you heavy?
I feel the harness tight against my waist
Try to watch the burgers in the caf
Hold the burgers
Itâs not the burgers
Iâm up in the blue and I almost hurl in my mask
Make it down just in time to puke on the tarmac
Tell the boys I drank too much last night
Do a test
Pink
Iâm pink
Pink...