Thirty-Two
A COMPLICATION OF HIS GRANDSONâS illness has prevented Elazar, Nogaâs driver to the film site, from reaching the Ashdod port until late afternoon. Amid the labyrinth of poles, pulleys, forklifts and cranes that glitter in the sinking sunlight, the practiced eye of the retired police commander quickly locates the giant warehouse repurposed as a fictitious hospital, which in the weeks to come will turn into cinematic reality.
Standing at the entrance are several extras awaiting assignment, based on personal choice or the needs of the production. The âeternal extraâ is recognized at once, but no one asks his preference.
âElazar, you go to the morgue. Sorry, no way will your face appear in this series.â
âBut theyâll s-s-see my face as that of a dead man!â
âAnd when they see youâre finally dead, itâll be a relief.â
Elazar sighs. âIf thatâs your decision.â
âBut you wonât be bored. Thereâll be a story line in the morgue, a medical debate about your death, possibly ending in an autopsy.â
âMost entertaining.â
Now they ask his companion what she would like to be: a patient or the relative of one? If a patient, chronic or recovering?
Elazar jumps in: âPatient, but not critical, just ill.â
But the casting people are not about to hide such a pretty face between blankets and pillows, and so that the camera can caress her femininity, a compromise is suggested: a patient in a wheelchair, hooked up to a colorful intravenous bag.
Elazar is taken to the morgue, and Noga is led through a maze of thin white plywood partitions to an unidentified woman who asks her to change into a floral nightgown. Then she is seated in a wheelchair and taught how to operate it. Her clothes are placed in a plastic bag and hung on the chair, and an IV pole is added on, with a bag filled with blood-red fluid, its tube attached securely to her arm. From here on, she is told, she is free to go about as she wishes. They will find her when she is needed.
The night is not far off, and through the few windows, installed in the warehouse for the film production, the setting sun pours the remains of its day, a potion of copper and gold. Noga wheels herself amid medical equipment, beds and gurneys, occasionally encountering mobile cameras and fuzzy microphones. Despite its transient, improvisational quality, she finds the set to be believable and well suited to its purpose. From time to time she rolls into one of the rooms, where patients bedecked with medical devices greet the guest with friendly waves and invite her to take an interest in their imaginary ailments.
But she mainly sticks to the corridor, to check if there is a back exit from imagination into reality, and perhaps along the way to peek into the morgue and check up on the smiling policeman, missing his protective presence.
The corridor gets darker, seemingly narrower, due perhaps to some mysterious intent of its planners or merely to the evening that envelops the world. This entire huge and forbidding warehouseâit occurs to her suddenlyâis a metaphor for humanity, and we are all extras in its story, not knowing if a credible and satisfying resolution awaits us at the end. If only, she sighs, it were set to the right music.
People have to press themselves against the walls to make way for her wheelchair, some of them patients, some relatives, others extras or actors, medical staff and production staffâwho can tell the difference between the real and the fictitious? There are those who smile sympathetically and inquire about her disability, and others who pass by in silent sadness. But she keeps rolling along, determined to find that back exit, which suddenly dazzles her with a glimpse of the gray-blue Mediterranean.
The door leads to a small platform of facilities for workers at the port, with two sheds, one for storage and the other for changing clothes, as well as a small cafeteria, and the doorway is blocked by a large manâthe retired judge, a familiar and amiable extra whose uniform, baseball cap and pistol establish him as the hospital security guard.
âWhat can you do?â he says merrily to the wheeling harpist in her brightly colored nightgown. âThey havenât given up on me, asked me to be the guard at the hospital door, so my character will be a regular fixture in the series, a way to fatten my pension.â
âNo need to apologize,â Noga assures him. âYouâre an Israeli Hitchcock. The audience canât relax till they spot his cameo. Meanwhile, our friend Elazar has been taken to the gallows. He wonât be able to show his smiling face anymore.â
The judge laughs. âDonât worry, the stuttering policeman will rise like a daisy from the dead and fill important roles. And you, dear Noga, have you concluded your experiment?â
âMine? You mean my motherâs.â
âYours too, because youâre part of it.â
âTrue.â
âWhatâs the verdict?â
âMother is still up in the air, but my sense is she wonât abandon Jerusalem.â
âBravo! Thatâs how a brave secular woman should act. And you, dear?â
âIn ten daysâ time I report for duty in Europe beside my harp, to begin rehearsals of Berliozâs Fantastique.â
âThat way, youâll be leaving Israel without appearing as an extra in a TV commercial and not just in a fictional story.â
âWhatâs the difference?â
But as the judge-cum-security-guard tries to explain the essential difference, her attention strays to the cafeteria and its customers. These are mainly men, no longer young, presumably dock workers and customs clerks, gray-haired and bald, but she imagines them as seagoing folk at a Mediterranean port, and is seized by a fierce nostalgia, as if they retained something precious that she had lost, some feeling that has no substitute.
âYouâre not listening.â
âYouâre right, because Iâm burned out, with no one around to explain to me how the devil I got talked into this. And you, my honored friend, where do you find the strength to hop from story to story? Your family doesnât miss you?â
âOn the contrary, itâs good that Iâm not at home. Ever since I retired theyâve complained that I never stop judging them.â
And as the blood of the vanished sun is soaked into the clouds, the cafeteriaâs lights go out to hasten the exit of the customers, a weaker light is turned on, a tall Sudanese appears and proceeds to set the chairs upside down on the tables, and in the fading twilight there emerge from the cafeteria not humans but silhouettes, headed for a rear gate of creaky revolving bars that ejects them from the port one by one. One figure remains standing on the platform as if lost in thought. Instead of exiting the revolving gate with the others, the figure turns around and heads toward the sea, past huge containers and enormous cranes, walking slowly, dreamily, alongside a gigantic, dark ship, as if hoping to draw strength from it, or inspiration. The unhurried, hesitant steps, halting from time to time, unsettle the woman watching, as if she has seen it before. Her gaze persists until the figure is swallowed in the darkness, and at the edge of the breakwater the lighthouse begins flashing its beam, three short blinks and a pause.
âWhat are you staring at, young lady?â
âHow did the twilight in Israel become so short?â
âBecome? When?â The judge laughs. âYouâve been in Europe too long and you forget how fast darkness falls in your homeland.â
âApparently.â
âSo what do you say?â
âAbout what?â
âAbout the possibility that before leaving you participate as an extra in an interesting commercial, which Iâve already signed up for.â
âNo,â she protests, âIâm done being an extra. I wonât be in any more made-up stories, not in commercials and not in reality, and so I am saying goodbye forever to you too, mighty watchman. You must be strict. No one must be allowed to enter and no one to escape. And now I am going to resign and give up my chair.â
She mischievously pulls down the brim of the judgeâs cap until it covers his eyes, and spins her wheelchair around and back into the corridor, which is not as dark now, for at the far end two spotlights have been turned on to shoot a scene that calls for her participation.
Even as she rises from her wheelchair to announce her departure and request that she be liberated from the intravenous tube stuck to her arm, a young man wearing an ID tag gently seizes her arm and seats her back in the chair.
âWe need you in a specific scene that will be happening soon, and then you can decide what you want to do.â
âWhat kind of scene?â
âPermit us not to reveal it in advance, because the director wants to create a surprise, to capture an initial, spontaneous look, frightened, maybe shocked.â
âShocked by what?â
âNo, please, Iâve already said too much, but you can be sure we wonât ask anything that an extra like you canât handle. We only want your presence as a disabled patient who enters her hospital room and is suddenly agitated by an intimate scene.â
âIntimate?â
âI just let slip another unnecessary word. Intimate in the broadest sense of the word.â
âBut wait. I came to tell you I was leaving.â
âWe heard you, and weâre sorry to see you go, but only after we finish this scene.â
âWhy donât you find someone else to be shocked?â
âBecause youâre the best, in terms of age, looks and especially your cultured quality. Youâre a musician, no?â
âA harpist.â
âSo please, Noga,â the young man sweetly pronounces her name, âdonât say no.â
She agrees halfheartedly. A makeup artist rushes over and cleans her face and neck of the dayâs sweat, and with a thin brush tries to revive lines of beauty that had faded or were forgotten, and an assistant brings her a cold beer and snack, and above her head the IV is switched from red to blue, and the young man with the tag stands behind her and wheels her expertly to the center of the giant warehouse.
âIf the intimacy youâre talking about is happening in the morgue,â she warns, âyou should know I have a good friend there.â
âThe morgue? Whereâd you get that idea?â
âThereâs no morgue in this hospital?â
âI havenât heard of it, but maybeââthe young man laughsââweâll need something like that later on, for the victims of the film shoot.â
Now she is troubled and unsmilingâwhere have they sent Elazar? But there is no way back. Her chair comes to a halt in front of a heavy door, tightly shut, on whose other side a scene will take place, or is taking place, that is meant to frighten her.
Silence. Not a sound from beyond the door. The young man grabs the handles of the chair as if fearing a last-minute refusal. A few minutes pass, the door opens and a doctor exits, visibly upset. He is about forty, wearing a white gown and a stethoscope around his neck. Obviously an actor, not an extra.
His handsome face is serious, almost tormented, and she sees something familiar in his look, of humiliation, of passion crushed by hatred. He notices the wheelchair-bound extra in a nightgown, nods cordially and moves down the corridor. The door opens again and a man comes out, older and bearded, with an ID tag and a small walkie-talkie attached to his belt. The young man who wheeled her takes the man aside and whispers in his ear, and the older man turns to Noga, takes her hand and introduces himself as the director of the series. âI know,â he says, âthat you were reluctant to do the scene weâre about to shoot, and I thank you for agreeing to do it. Rest assured that we wonât involve you in anything undignified. Who knows, you might change your mind after this scene and stay with us for the duration.â
âNo. Iâm sick of all this.â
The director touches her arm gently, as if she were a child. He approaches the actor, pulls him aside for a confidential talk, but a sharp musical ear can overcome the distance. âSheâs tough,â grumbles the actor. âShe doesnât inspire me . . . not a bit of passion in her. All technical.â
The director goes back into the room to have a tĂȘte-Ă -tĂȘte with the actress, leaving the actor with the extra at the closed door. The hem of his gown brushes the wheel of her chair, and he nervously plays with the stethoscope, putting it suddenly to the test. He plugs in the earpieces and smiles sheepishly at the extra, who fears for a moment that he wants to listen to her heartbeat. But the make-believe doctor wishes to examine only himself, undoing the buttons of his gown and running the disk over his bare chest. He closes his eyes as he strains to interpret the beating of his heart, but when he sees the smiling extra, he stops and mumbles, something about the chilly actress he will soon have to make love to, and then the door opens and he is summoned inside.
Deep silence. The young assistant standing behind her, quiet and attentive, grips the handles of the wheelchair. Nogaâs eyes close in despair. What is happening to me in Israel? she wonders. How, in just a few weeks, have I turned from a professional musician to a movable movie extra? Where will my mother and brother wheel me next in their pointless experiment?
The door opens and the director comes out and silently rolls her inside, navigating the cables, cameras, monitors and lights, stopping at the edge of the action.
âSo, Noga,â he calls her by name, âyouâre a disabled patient. Youâre returning to your room, to your bed. Please wheel yourself in there, just two or three meters, and stop, taken aback, shocked if possible, because in the next bed, something is happening that you didnât expect, and you definitely donât like, and the camera will tell us what youâre thinking and feeling.â
She does as he says, wheeling herself into a dark, scrupulously replicated hospital room with two beds, an empty one for her and a second bed, and alongside it the doctor, who can no longer restrain himself. He rips away his stethoscope, and instead of checking the heart and lungs of the half-naked patient, he brushes her sternum with his lips and kisses her breasts and shoulders, all with the complete consent of the patient, perhaps in the belief that the touch and kisses of a licensed physician will speed her recovery. As the astonished extra tries to distinguish between the lust of the actor and the lust of the man, she hears a whisper behind her: âGet closer, so theyâll know youâre there.â
The doctor, now alarmed by his deed, comes to his senses and stands upright, his bare chest heaving inside the open medical gown. With a savage gaze he studies the disabled woman who has intruded on his passion, and with no warning, in a brisk and aggressive turn, he tears her from the wheelchair, lifts her in his arms and carries her to the vacant bed, laying her down and quickly covering her body and face with a sheet. And as she wonders whether that action was scripted or is a spontaneous move by an imaginative actor, the voice of the director shouts âCut!â followed by the cheers of the crew.
Someone hurries to remove the sheet and help her out of the bed, as if she were in fact disabled and needing assistance. The actressâa young, slender woman with big, beautiful eyesâwaves at her warmly from the next bed, as if they were partners in an adventure, and begins to dress, slowly and carelessly.
âShould we do that one again?â the cameraman pipes up.
âNo,â shouts Noga, âIâve done my part. I donât work here anymore.â
The extraâs declaration halts the filming. Someone wheels in a tea cart stocked with sandwiches and bottles of juice and soda, and the hungry crew scatter around the set, eating and drinking, talking only about themselves. As Noga is having her makeup removed, the actor comes over and says, âI hope I didnât hurt you.â âNo,â says Noga. âAt first you scared me, but I also felt your fear that I would report you to management.â
She is determined to get out of there and heads for the exit, but the director intercepts her, grateful for her participation. âThank you. We got from you what we hoped and more,â he says. âWhat were you hoping?â she asks tartly. âWe were hoping for just anger and pity,â he says. âAnd when the doctor surprised us too and carried you to the bed, we were afraid you would resist, but were happy to see you act with dignity and wisdom.â
âSo Iâm not such an amateur after all,â she compliments herself, and hurries to find her way back to the world.
The corridors that had been desolate before the filming are now filled with new extras who arrived for the evening. She is surprised that many of th...